I have had this feeling lately, I really wasn't sure what it was... And then I read ASHLEY's blog and MckMama's blog, and it came to me! I'm going to miss this!!! I look back over the years and there is so much that I wish I would have captured about my children... I can't believe that Ondrianna is 7!!! She's my baby... I think this year was the hardest in letting her go to school. My dream, stay at home and home school all of my children. I truly hope through prayer one day this will be a reality. I would even consider if I could work from home... I hate to say it but sometimes I feel bad because she is the oldest that she oftern gets a lot of the burden on her.... I will work on this, maybe this should go on my 101 in 1001 list... Miss Drea, mommy loves you very much I hope you know this... you are my shining star.I love how my daughter comes to me every evening... several times just to say I love you... I'm going to miss this! 2010 has brought the realization to listen to those words and cherish every time that I hear it!
Ah and then there is Payge... my poor Payge, I wonder what life with her will be like in 8 years... she is a pistol now, thats what makes her special! She is a spitfire who's personality is what makes her... I'm sure when she's older... I'm going to miss this. :) She's a snuggler, while there are plenty of things I should be doing, snuggling sounds so much better doesn't it?! I've missed MANY opportunities to just curl up with an episode of SpongeBob Squarepants and my Payge... Note to self 2010, live for the moment, tomorrow is never promised, do things that are important rather than what is "IMPORTANT".
On a side note as I am curled up typing this blog, Josey is in her room playing her piano, Sera is standing on the couch singing All the Single Ladies and watching Little Miss Perfect. Drea is telling me how she just can't sleep... We'll be returning to the doctor for that soon... Payge, like her mommy, passes out the moment she can. She's tucked into her bed amidst the chaos.
Now comes my Sera Bug... She has such a VIVID imagination... From her fairy like actions as she floats from place to place, or to her hundreds of kisses and hugs... I'm going to miss this!!!! She is my little miss perfect pageant queen she'd never have to attend a pageant to be my queen. This child is such a hoot, I wish I could freeze time and keep them little forever...Oh and daddy taught her how to spell ANGEL. Sera how do you spell angel? SERA mommy! I'm going to miss this!
Finally Miss Josey, oh Miss Josey, she is as bull headed as they come, I have to say though she's definitely Daddy's little girl... Of all of our girls she's that one who is the definition of daddy's girl. Her personality is so vibrant. Now that she is learning to talk much more her words are so funny and her little twang is so cute... I'm going to miss this!
All that said, while each of them are special in their own way, I love them all the same... I'm going to miss these little moments... Not all that long ago at work someone asked me which one I loved the most... Clearly she does not have kids, and heaven help us when she does, BUT I was in shear amazement that she assumed that I had a favorite, clearly she wasn't her parents favorite...LOL! Sorry that was mean, but as a mother, my fangs came out. How dare you tell me that I have a favorite. Of course I guess I should consider the source when someone with a cat tries to give me parenting advice!
To my girls... I love you all very much... You are so special to me each in your own way...One day I hope you know this!
Monday, January 4, 2010
So in my 101 in 1001 I said that I would be blogging more. I had been doing really well, until Tuesday hit. All week I sat in my cubicle feeling horrible, but not knowing why. Tuesday evening I stopped by the grocery picked up my RX and really needed a few other things, but just couldn't bear the pain so I walked straight out the front door of Kroger got into my car, picked up my kids and headed home.Wednesday I awoke, got ready for work, and simply could not stand so my husband helped my back into bed. This pain was not pregnancy pain this was something that I had never felt before, I felt as though I was going to die! Later that morning I called the doctor, he said to proceed to labor and delivery so I complied. How silly did I feel and look at 10 weeks walking into Labor and Delivery... The hooked me to IV's and began running tests, however they were not listening to where the pain was, FINALLY at 4:00a shift change the most amazing nurse, Charla started hearing what I was saying she called the doctor and we were on our way. He ordered an ultrasound and more blood work. I got to see my little peanut, its growing so big, little arms and legs a beautifully round head and a very strong heartbeat. I have always been excited about ultrasounds, but after two miscarriages this simple little test is so much more amazing to me. Needless to say I have a "sludgey" gall bladder... EWWW! That is what was causing my emense pain. A few IV drugs later and viola I was feeling better, until they switched me to oral... they do not work nearly as well! After four long days in the hospital, I am home and back to blogging.